The Road Less Traveled

The Road Not Taken

BY ROBERT FROST

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,

And sorry I could not travel both

And be one traveler, long I stood

And looked down one as far as I could

To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,

And having perhaps the better claim,

Because it was grassy and wanted wear;

Though as for that the passing there

Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay

In leaves no step had trodden black.

Oh, I kept the first for another day!

Yet knowing how way leads on to way,

I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh

Somewhere ages and ages hence:

Two roads diverged in a wood, and I—

I took the one less traveled by,

And that has made all the difference.

I have always found this poem to be of great inspiration. Every now and again I can't help but go back and reread it and wonder have I taken that less traveled road? Or have I just followed in line with everyone else? I would like to think I'm not a conformist but I can't help but look back over the last ten years and wonder why did I make the choices I made. I can say that I've experienced a lot in my 30 years and while not every choice was the best one I have little regret. I would like to think that I've learned lessons and going forward I will continue to choose the path that's best suited for myself and my "boys" and not make decisions just because I feel the pressure to do what others do/feel/think/believe to be the best decision. I will choose my own path and take that less traveled road and become the person that I have always envisioned myself becoming. 

I started working out again as I said I would in my last post to get myself fit and healthy. My ab muscles will attest to my progress though the results aren't overwhelmingly evident, I discovered today that my need for instant gratification will have to be overridden by my desire to be healthy. <--- notice I say healthy instead of skinny :-) That's a word I truly detest for the stigma it carries along with it, and there is a massive difference in being thin/skinny and being healthy. Rant over. So while I'm a person who generally thrives off instant gratification I know that doesn't work with for this journey. So I'm changing my mindset and learning to read and respond to my bodies actual wants and needs. I'm finally doing what I need to to change my path and though I've strayed I am seeing the beginnings of a new path and one that I'm sure to travel down for a long time no matter what twists, turns and obstacles it has for me once I'm on it I know I'll be on my way taking the my own less traveled road. 

Cheers xoxo

Lofty Goals

After all this time of not posting I am making a personal vow to actually start doing this once a week if not more! (This is where my title comes into play). So with my birthday day fast approaching and the wedding now less than a year away, I've decided I'm going to play the part of a grown up for a while and set some goals for myself with the promise of actually accomplishing them. I've definitely done this before, I set goals for myself and then after about two weeks kind of fall off the wagon. I am also a notoriously stubborn person so I'm going to let that person come out to play and stick to my guns. Okay ready here are the goals I intend on accomplishing: 

     Lose at least 15 pounds (or more but starting small) by August. I think that is extremely reasonable to lose that over the course of 8 weeks. I am hoping that I will continue to lose if needed and tone up over the course of the remaining 9 months  until the wedding.

     Go back to school and finally decide what I want to be when I grow up! My heart lies with being a psychologist at the VA hospital for our returning vets. PTSD is such a huge and very silent and unspoken disease among those currently serving and veterans. It is something I feel exceptionally passionate about and really want to pursue that dream. I am going to over the course of the next month look into what I need to do to make this happen. 

     So right now those are my 3 lofty long term goals for myself. I really plan to stick to this for myself and I'm quite sure that I will be writing blogs bitching and complaining about the wedding, weight loss, and going back to school. In the end I know I will be happy and feel accomplished and be much more proud of myself then I do right now. 

Let's keep fingers crossed and prayers said that I can and will have the stubbornness to pull this off. Knowing I want to look amazing when I walk down the isle and that I want Jim to look at me and think I'm the most beautiful woman he's ever seen should help!! 

Cheers!!! xoxo